Quite a number of things lately have reminded me of how I was as a child: a conversation between close friends, an object and an experience.
Through the conversation, I realized that my earliest childhood memories had always revolved around my piano lessons and ballet performances. These were my earliest childhood memories that did not need to be reminded by a photograph, but memories that were ingrained. I realized I did not have many negative memories as a child (or perhaps I have chosen to forget); I was a lucky one.
Through the object, I realized that I had my own persistence, my own 倔強 in doing things. I admired that little bit of 執著 which I have lost present day due to pressures of time. I miss childhood for the fact that I never really had to always ask the time of day. I was able to do everything meticulously and with care.
Through the experience, I realized I actually really miss my piano lesson days, not for the fact that I have completed all my classes and that I probably won’t be going through more classes, but for the fact that the lessons allowed me to consistently work and practice on the same songs until I was able to master them for the exams. I do not have this consistency and goal to demonstrate this consistency anymore in music.
It is fortunate that I found these things that reminded me of who I was and how I used to be. Somehow, I hope I can pick these certain characteristics I have had in the past and still use them in present day, despite the constant time chase. Nevertheless, I am still happy that I am able to keep up with my dance and piano leisurely whenever I can.
Just for fun – here was a photoshoot I did for my friends. It serves as a reminder to keep up with what I loved to do.
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